A bit of a long backstoryed one: I am a 16 year old boy, who was raised up differently from everyone else and when I finally went to school at 12 I was somewhat disorientated by talking to people outside my family as it was strange to have to try and be like everyone else when you could be yourself. People bullied me because I was so grown up, strange and also I would always back down but, as an effect I hid my emotions to make me less vulnerable. As a result now 16 I feel cold. I ask for my emotions and I get confused. I am a good actor and fake most of them but, as an aspiration I want to be a CEO of a game designing business not for power but I want to help people. The problem is that I am borderline depressed, Have no motivation to live other then my family and worried I could easily become a power hungry psychopath. I also intend to wake up at some point because everything around me feels fake and I often wonder if I am dreaming. My question is what do I do?

You seem to have a good understanding of human psychology; often, when we feel we are in a position where we cannot express anger, we push it down. If we don't deal with it, if we don't understand how to deal with it, it will eventually come out sometimes with disastrous effect. All when we are young to one degree or another have to push down anger or frustration.

Regardless, all of us are held to account for our actions! When it is all said and done, when we leave the earth, there are no excuses that will justify our bad behavior. Our lives, the good and the bad are controlled. So, the challenges we face are, for the most part, predestined. It's hard to consider that children have such a hard time of it but consider that you were a full grown man before you came to earth. You came here to correct certain deficiencies in your character as we all did, in order to live in an eternal immortal society. Living in an immortal society is no piece of cake; it is difficult and requires that we overcome the challenges that we must face both here on the earth and there.

Consider that the depression we feel is nothing more than a frequency that makes us feel bad, angry, frustrated… etc. Rise above it! Don't allow your emotions to control you. You know right from wrong and feeling bad inside does not justify our punishing other people for crimes against you they did not commit. Allow logic to be your guide into the future. When your feelings or desires, born from anger and frustration, attempt to pull you in one direction; a direction that would not be good, either for you or for society; use your force of will to move the other direction; down the path of righteousness. Being able to move against our desires is a test of self-discipline and self-discipline is absolutely necessary for us to leave the cycle of life and death forever.

Good luck on your journey and becoming a CEO.
J.S. Thompson