I feel like life’s/god’s/universe’s/whatever the hell’s guinea pig. I don’t want to exist in any form.I don’t want after life.I don’t want any life.I don’t wanna be thrown into the cycle of life and death again.You say that we have to correct our character weakness, face a lot of challenges and become divine if we want to break this cycle.But I’m not willing to do any of this because it is difficult and painful.I’m not willing to go through this crap.I don’t wanna be a part of this stupid, sadistic experiment called life and evolution.I don’t wanna be a part of the “divine play”. I don’t want to face any challenges.I don’t want to be a part of any immortal society.What will be my fate after my death if I don’t wish to exist in any form?Will I be given a choice to not exist in any form or will I be thrown into this cycle of life and death again forcefully AGAINST MY WILL?

July 16, 2014

Response

RESPONSE:

I'm sorry you feel so bad; I know that this feeling is not permanent though. You’re obviously in a great deal of pain and I'm sorry for that, beautiful feelings are right around the corner but you'll need to help them come.

The answer to your question is twofold...

1) No… immortality is not a choice, we are going to be alive forever and the sooner we accept that the sooner we can see the beauty of eternal life.

2) We are not forced to come back to earth, we choose to.....or not.

Life cycles up and down, if we're astute, we can see it happen and when we begin to cycle up or down, with just a little effort we can learn to avoid both the highs and lows of life. I know that sounds a little illogical; after all who wants to stifle, to a small degree, the highs of life? However, it is the extreme highs of life that lead the way to the way lows. We need to find a nice comfortable place in the middle.


Both extreme peaks of this cycle are represented by extreme anxiety at the highs and stress at the low peak. Both extreme cycles represent disassociation with the way we view reality and the unrealistic expectations we have. Reality can be realized in the middle and reality is beautiful!

The most difficult aspect of life is acceptance of reality!

Whether we like it or not, we're going to live forever the sooner we accept this truth the sooner we can begin to live, the sooner we can love the challenges of life.

It really doesn't take a lot of effort to get to this point. We do need to make an effort but once we do break through that layer of self-pity and denial, we begin to build some spiritual toughness; the challenges become fun and we say to ourselves, “How in the world could I have been so blind; the things that caused so much pain weren't even real!”

When we've been knocked down, sometimes we just want to stay there and die, but you’re not going to die. You might die to the earth but you’re not going to die and you will continue to lay there on the ground until you get back up again and try again to negotiate that challenge once again. The challenge isn't going to go away ever. It's going to be there until you have victory over it; what a great day that will be and it's not a matter of if but… a matter of when!

Every one of us on this earth chose to come here. We came here for reasons that we completely understood out there before coming back. We came here to accomplish something important and we put our trust in those who surround us to make sure we don't leave the earth without having victory over the issues we have, as individuals, which keep us continuing to choose to come back to earth over and over again.

If you’re willing to try, I'm willing to try with you. First, tell your guide’s thank you for the challenges they have put in your path; they will only serve to strengthen you in the future. Thank your guides for the faith they've had in you and the strength they see in you. Say to them… “I know now that had you not have known this, I would have never experienced the great challenges I've faced, thank you for your love, endurance and commitment. Thank you for this beautiful opportunity... I'm making the effort now to understand and I'm taking the first step with you."

I'm going to say a prayer now and I want you to say it with me. Please understand that I use the word God, not as a primitive symbol of manmade religion but a word that describes the controlling entity in the universe.


The prayer goes like this……

Dear God help me to become the kind of person who "will" live in paradise forever you know what I need so do with me what you will help transform me into a person that I can love as much as you love me into a person who can see the great potential I have as God already does.

Let not my will but your will be done
Amen


This is the only prayer you will ever need to say; say this prayer with your heart not just with your mind or your mouth. If you will begin to knock on that door long and hard enough, the door will open and you will transform.
Can you get back up in that horse and ride again? If you choose to do so, don't be too surprised if you get knocked off again but if you do… just say the prayer I gave you and get back up! Take this attitude into your heart and I promise that your world will change from a horrible nightmare into a beautiful desire realized.

You are not alone in your thoughts of this nature or other. I also, used to have this same argument with God and God would tell me this; “If you can tell me with your heart that you really want to quit, I will let you out of this and I would try to say it with everything I had but God who could see my heart would tell me, “No, you did not say it with your heart; I will not let you out of this challenge.”

It took me some time to figure this out but I finally did. All of us have the desire to have victory over the challenges that keep us from our dreams. The truth of it all is this; our true desires can only be realized when we can have victory over the challenge(s)… not before.

We betray ourselves when we say to God that we no longer want to participate because life got a little tough. God knows what our hearts desire is and it is waiting for us on the other side of the challenges god has put in our path.

Good luck in your journey…….
J.S. Thompson